I have died many times
by a thousand cuts
Real, yet
indiscernible to naked eyes

I don’t know
what brings me back to life
To face all the troubles again
I beg let me go
Too much pain in this world

Is it the cries of people I may have wronged?
Or, is it the pleas of people I may have helped?
One person’s help maybe another person harm!
How can I decipher this?
It’s a conundrum
It’s a dilemma

What do I need to do
to ensure I am not brought back?
Whom do I have to pay?
All my life I have paid to play
Just this one is proving to be difficult
Why?
Though I have never prayed before
If it would help, I am willing

I have not been very charitable
If I donate now
would God let me have my way?
Wait, I don’t believe in God
Damn!

I have to do what I have to do to get my wish granted
I’m just an ordinary human being
I can only do what I know how to!
Have some sympathy
Please, please, please.